I don’t feel very good right now. I’m one year and some change on HRT. It’s been a wonderful experience so far and I love being a girl. I know that I’m trans, and I’m reminded by “why” every time I go home and I’m forced to boymode.
Unfortunately that’s little comfort to the complex feelings of starting to feel erectile dysfunction (ED). I just had sex with my trans girlfriend and she didn’t have much left. I can’t ignore this feeling I’m on that same path eventually.
I want some sort of function either male or female. Even though I still wish I was born with a vagina. It pains me to even think about going off HRT though. I love being a girl too much and I don’t think I could present fem without HRT. I still have most all of its function but it doesn’t stay up for as long.
It’s a completely irrational feeling that I hope will be solved eventually with SRS, but that’s probably 10 years away and I just learned how to be sexual 2 years ago.
would just add that the width & hardness of what you are penetrated with matters here - you can lose width / have stenosis from no longer dilating with a hard dilator and just relying on penetrative sex, if the width & hardness of your partner or your toys are not comparable or don’t make up for what a dilator would have provided
in practice, plenty of women are happy with the width maintained from just penetrative sex, and there is no obligation to keep a wider canal than what you are happy living with.
Excellent addition/clarification, thanks!