I don’t feel very good right now. I’m one year and some change on HRT. It’s been a wonderful experience so far and I love being a girl. I know that I’m trans, and I’m reminded by “why” every time I go home and I’m forced to boymode.
Unfortunately that’s little comfort to the complex feelings of starting to feel erectile dysfunction (ED). I just had sex with my trans girlfriend and she didn’t have much left. I can’t ignore this feeling I’m on that same path eventually.
I want some sort of function either male or female. Even though I still wish I was born with a vagina. It pains me to even think about going off HRT though. I love being a girl too much and I don’t think I could present fem without HRT. I still have most all of its function but it doesn’t stay up for as long.
It’s a completely irrational feeling that I hope will be solved eventually with SRS, but that’s probably 10 years away and I just learned how to be sexual 2 years ago.
You can absolutely maintain normal erectile function while on HRT, I’m two years in and everything still works just fine thanks to sildenafil and a pump+ring. Most of the time I don’t even need the pill but I’m also on monotherapy so non-zero T levels may be a factor. Also there are much cheaper options available for pumps that I’m told will get comparable results, I just like that specific design.