Oh fuck adhd without autopilot must suck ass, it’s my only escape sometimes. Really feeling for you. Are you on medication? I would try medication ASAP, ritalin, vyvanse whatever. Legally is ofcourse easiest if possible. Otherwise if you have a campus near, try befriending some people there, they very much are students drugs. Caffeine can be a huge help too or huge burden so either take loads more or cut it depending on what your taking. You can get a good dosage going with a morning coffee and then keep it up with black tea for instance. There also are caffeine pills of course if you need to dose without tea throughout the day.
Ultimately that feeling of having to concentrate “through your thoughts” are your nervecells pumping dopamine in every direction. If you get a sluggish feeling like your thoughts are stuck in mud and youre thinking feels like wading through water that’s your nerve cells no longer having sufficient dopamine to think. There is jack shit you can do about that it fucking sucks ass. This is not a failure on your end, your nerves had to “burn” dopamine like a coaltrain going uphill and now there simply is none left. I don’t know how I survived before taking medication and I hope I never have to find out.
Also be mindful of alcohol, cut it if you are taking any. The effect is way longer lasting than the buzz, the buzz is an increased dopamine release, but this needs to be replenished which for adhd people like us, who already need to be mindful of their dopamine levels can kill the entire day after dead even if we’re not “hungover”.
The dems keep sliding right because the right isn’t voting for them. Just an observation.