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Kid Starver’s a goofy gooner, yeah!

Lots of great quotes here already.

“If you remove the English army tomorrow and hoist the green flag over Dublin Castle, unless you set about the organisation of the Socialist Republic your efforts would be in vain. England would still rule you. She would rule you through her capitalists, through her landlords, through her financiers, through the whole array of commercial and individualist institutions she has planted in this country and watered with the tears of our mothers and the blood of our martyrs.” – James Connolly, Socialism and Nationalism

I’m not sure what I’d recommend, except that you do need that distance to your stressors. You know better if for example homeless shelter is suitable for this or not.

Personally if I was in need of a safe space I’d approach relatives who I have warm relations with, comrades, other friendly people, and seek that way out through them. I’d list my options, order them from most to least desired, then separate this list into two lists: what are in my reach right now, and what has some obstacles to overcome. After this I’d probably have some plan, and few alternatives if things go wrong.

Perhaps you could try mapping out your options in similar fashion? And yes, do get hold of your passport!

Justice would probably be at least a temporarily relief, but like you said, unlikely under capitalism. I hope you get justice one day.

Mind that I’m not professional in this area, but in my experience, I’d recommend first finding that safe space where your main stressors are no longer affecting your life. Change of environment will aid in healing. You’ll still have flashbacks, it’s a long road, but it’ll get easier when you’re not around your stressors. The tricky part is how you can do this without steady income.

I’m sure after weighing your options you’ll come up with a plan that helps you into that safe place you deserve. I wish strength to you.

Exactly like that. Being stressed while seeking for help, and not getting it fast enough. This can happen to anybody, but I’m sure it’s tenfold to people with PTSD and anxiety.

Giving an advice to complex social situations is not easy, this could explain the lack of replies. However, your feelings are valid and I can relate.

If your family doesn’t bring safety to you, then you should find a way out.

I’m not sure if dropping out of college would help at all. Perhaps better to go through it, at least then your chances of getting a job are better.

However, in the case of dropping out you should come up with some kind of profession that suits your situation. Something that you can do regardless of your location, remote work.

This might be extremely difficult in your situation, so you may need to find your way out and heal first before entering into work.

Going abroad is an option if you find work, a study place, or a partner who can help you. This however may not be an instant fix as moving abroad can make your mental health worse due to new stressors, despite of the root causes (family?) being no longer around.

I don’t have a perfect solution to offer. Just do those things that bring you closer to the life you want to have. I’m sure you’ll get through this. ❤️

Quite literally pants down, it seems.

I’ve done something similar by taking a picture of some important point in the text. This has turned out to be a fantastic way to be baffled years later why on earth there is a boat load of random pictures of text hogging up space on phone!

I shall try your method.

Would Matapacos do?