Space Engineers. I’ve never fought a running game as much as this one. Autosaving causes the game to hang for 10 seconds and it saves every 5 minutes. For a game made in 2013 I had to lower all the settings to medium and off to get a decent framerate. The first playthrough I barely got anywhere in nearly 20 hours of play. The learning curve is pretty high. I felt like Dr. Malcolm tapping on the screen yelling 'there is ‘space in this game right?’

All that being said I still enjoy it. The learning curve tapers off pretty quickly after the first playthrough. Now it’s about learning how to build ships and experimenting with different part combinations. It’s a clunky mess of a game, but I am enjoying it.

That being said I also picked up Avorion as a comparison game. I also wish listed Empyrion to complete the voxel space epic trilogy. All this to find a game better than No Man’s Sky and X4.

Missing out on one of the best video games ever made out of fear of the backlog is ridiculous. Play it.

Quick winter days depress the hell out of me. I need a baseline of 12 hours of sunlight.

Snow and rain. Love it. Takes all the pressure off of doing anything.

Long hot summer days also depress the fuck out of me but I can mitigate that a billion different ways.

Fall days are my comfort zone. I usually feel my best around September through November. The temp goes down. I can still wear shorts but it’s also not mind numbingly hot. My birthday and the holidays fall in that period. Usually the middle of December when it’s cold and dark by 4 my mood goes down.

Foggy days make me want to carry a machete around and hunt monsters in an abandoned town.

Oh I totally get it. But when the pattern persists, it may take another’s intervention to correct the behavior. That’s opening up a whole new can of worms.

Worse (USA)

At the age I am now(34) my parents had 3 kids and and a house. My mother was able to support us all on her salary alone. Dad worked as well and we were able to do whatever we wanted until they got divorced.

I’m upto my nose in school debt, unemployed, and living at home with mother. So are my brothers though they work. One had a baby. The other is a recovering drug addict with severe mental problems. We’ve traumatized each other in brutal violent ways. That’s a life I never want to bring other people into. Kids are out of the question until I move out. I just hope I’m not 40 and too late for that. Or worse dead.

If a person operates as if nothing is unconditional and they expect something in return or else you are deemed worthless, they’re a fucking cunt.

If a person continually makes a situation about themselves even when it’s 100% not, that’s a red flag.

If they whine and complain to get what they want or have others do for them, they’re a bad person.

Yelling at a newborn baby in a punishing manner as if they have any understanding of anything.

Voicemail crying in the corner again.

Yup, me too.

This is a black and white view on backlogs. Yes you can just not buy a game when you’re not ready to play it. That’s not usually how it always plays out. Yes I do buy games while they’re on sale and have been out for 5+ years. I buy games with the intention to play them. That doesn’t mean right away as soon as I buy it.

Most games I buy I fire up at least once. For the rare handful of games that I bought and never tried it’s not a big deal because I only paid a few bucks for these games. If it doesn’t click right away but I want to keep trying it goes on the back burner. If it doesn’t click at all, I refund it. If it’s a game I started and liked but fell off of for something else it goes in the backlog. Sometimes I just want a game in my collection. I know I won’t play it right now but if I have the means to buy it, I’m gonna get it so it’s in my collection and I don’t have to worry about it later. That’s a more rare situation and most games like that will sit in my Wishlist for years, but it does happen.

Sometimes games do go away. Command & Conquer wasn’t on Steam for years and then all of a sudden the whole collection showed up. Same as Dino Crisis in the last couple days. I used to have physical copies of the games but they got lost to time, be it giving them away to friends who wanted to play them, or losing them in moves, or selling them. Some of my backlog is older generation games that have been freed from their console shackles. They just announced MGS4 for PS5 and PC. I last played that game almost 15 years ago on PS3. I would love to play it again in the future. Even if I wait for a sale, I know I want it in my collection.

Games don’t always get cheaper as they get older either. Most Japanese games stay above $35 these days when not on sale. Even classics that are multiple generations old at this point. If I think a game is worth it at full price, I will pay full price.

Lastly my Wishlist isn’t just a catch all for games I want to play in the future. If that was the case there would be thousands of games on it. It’s a little bit more curated than that. It’s mainly for smaller games I do wait for because they’re in early access. Most big AAA games on my Wishlist are waiting for sales. The majority isn’t released or I’m waiting for reviews to see the quality on. Yes there are games I’m interested in but are not 100% sure I would play. That’s why I cull the list every few months or so.

If I’m not cremated feed me to an animal, otherwise mix my ashes in with a bunch of psychotic drugs and let my essence take you on a magical journey.

As big as my Steam backlog is, it would be 100x bigger if not for the Wishlist. I try to limit myself to 100 games in the Wishlist and trim it every once in a while when a game has been sitting in it for more than a couple years. It’s the same psychology here. Put it in a cart and let it sit there for a while. If you don’t really want it put it back.

Is the inside filled to capacity or are we letting the toppings roll around and fall to the bottom?

Imma say something controversial here. 3 is the best game in the series. People shit on it because of the ending and act like the whole game was a bummer because of it. That’s not true at all. 3 was the best game literally right up until the ending. It had improved the mechanics of 2, a better story than 2, and resolved most of the story in a great way until the very very very end. Honestly unmasking Tali was a bigger sin than the end of the 3. Dont ever let anybody tell you 3 sucked as a whole.

Good try RFK’s brainworm.

Fuck it. Battletech.

About 0.00001% of my worth as a human being. Wait till you venture out of the DE world and into the WM world. i3, BSPWM, Openbox. Go even farther and try Wayland with Sway, Hyprland, Niri, MangoWC. Make your own bars. Configure your own keybindings. Cuss a lot. Pull your hair out. Feel the pain. When you come out the other side you’ll wonder why you ever bothered with so much bloat to begin with. And all of a sudden you might know some CSS and json.