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I think I’m too socially inept to be useful
I don’t want to go into it, since it deals with irl stuff at my work.
But…I made a stupid mistake that is dumb and stupid and I just want to quit and never show up again.
Edit: I guess I can elaborate actually. I basically autopiloted and ate a coworker’s food by accident. They were really mad at me and him and another coworker looked at me like I’m stupid. Which I guess i am. I paid for the food and threw in extra as an apology but i know they and everyone else who knows probably thinks I’m insane or selfish or stupid or whatever. Now i remember why i was nearly a Hikkomori outside of attending classes.
This is why I overthink so much, but if I’m ever doing good then I under think. I should’ve just been aborted
So you brain glitched and then did the ethical thing by paying for it and even extra as an apology. That’s the important part, not that you made a mistake. The other important part is, assessing why it may have happened and if there are ways you can do differently going forward that would prevent it from reoccurring.
Nobody gets through life without making mistakes. Some mistakes are just more visible than others and so are perceived as more embarrassing. Now, sometimes people don’t try to learn from mistakes and so they just keep repeating them; that’s a problem. Or sometimes people repeat mistakes for reasons that are largely out of their control, which is a problem, but they aren’t necessarily the cause. But nobody is getting through life mistake-free and embarrassment-free.
Everyone else who saw has probably forgotten by now; do you remember all your coworker’s goofs?
Maybe…idk. They aren’t my bosses or anything but they’ve been there longer and I’m new. So i feel like everyone is gonna know me as “that asshole.” Idk. I guess I’m feeling a little bit better now that it’s been a day.
I have very bad social anxiety, obviously, so maybe I’m being paranoid. But in any case I feel like a POS. It was just really self centered and selfish of me to not think it through.
Don’t beat yourself up about it. You made a mistake and then fixed it. Plenty of people in the world have made worse mistakes than you have. If you were aborted, there would be one less Communist in the world, which would be a terrible loss.