Seriously no wonder people abuse this stuff. I have gotten so much absolutely back breaking work done today and I’m not even slightly tired. I cleared the rest of the BS blizzard snow from the rest of my driveway (had only shoveled the sidewalk before), plus the curb all the way to the nearest storm drain. I rearanged my living room, reorganized my whole service van, I finally swapped in that new clothes dryer that has been sitting in the garage for a month, and all that is after a full day of physical work. I would have normally been tired 3 times over by now. I’m am resting right now not because I feel like I need to but because I don’t want to accidentally actually cripple myself by acting like I’m superman. If only this stuff didn’t completely destroy your body in the long term.
When I was on a dexpak, everything was right with the world. Everything I did was in perfect rhythm, efficient, and useful. I got so much done that week. I really miss that feeling.
Yeah, every once in a while I need to actively tell myself, “Remember, this is temporary. Because if I take it too long my body will basically completely fucking disintegrate.”
Also find myself reminding myself of things like “My spine will become past tense if I attempt to carry that drier down the stairs by hand. I know I think I can do it but I also don’t want to explain to a disapointed looking doctor exactly how I dumb I actually am so I should resist the temptation.”