• Rant time:

    My older brother hates me.

    • he constantly fought me
    • he used zipties on me when I was like… 5 or 6 and he was 5 years older
    • constantly complains about me
    • practically chased me out of the apartment that one time and I ended up in the streets of a major city… most scary day of my life, I was 6 years old
    • the same thing as the line above, but in another city later on in my teens
    • he beats me up at home when parents are away
    • constantly says very bad things… and then add racism to it… implies other races are inferior and then claims that I’m “even worse” than those races… and he says it so casually its not a slip of the tongue out of anger… that’s just his moral character
    • tells mom that I don’t deserve inheritance and he want it all
    • then mom says shit like “I’m gonna give you nothing and give it all to [the other son]” to both of us… then he gets mad and implies he will murder me if mom did that…

    ngl I kinda thought about having streaming apps on my phone so if an incident happens, I can livestream it if he tries to murder me…

    I kinda just wanna disassociate with the culture and just blame all of this on the toxic Chinese culture honestly. It’s easier for my brain to handle.